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The Axioms of Consciousness claim to be an expression of self-placed constructive stipulation of Knowledge. With Knowledge itself all our science points to the final assignment of axioms. Science is generally looked upon as a system of comprehension; Scientology especially is that one system of comprehension which complies with the consciousness.



By October, 1950, I had come to the conclusion that I could not agree with all the tenets of dianetics as set forth by the Foundation. I could not, as previously mentioned, support Hubbard's claims regarding the state of “clear.” I no longer felt, as I once had, that any intelligent person could (and presumably should) practice dianetics. I noted several points on which the actions of the Foundation were at variance with the expressed ideals of dianetics: one of these points was a tendency toward the development of an authoritarian attitude. Moreover, there was a poorly concealed attitude of disparagement of the medical profession and of the efforts of previous workers in the field of mental illness. Finally, the avowed purpose of the Foundation -- the accomplishment of precise scientific research into the functioning of the mind -- was conspicuously absent.


In 1950, speaking to an audience of 6,000 in the Shrine Auditorium, Los Angeles, Hubbard introduced a coed named Sonya Bianca as a clear who had attained perfect recall of all “perceptics” (sense perceptions) for every moment of her past. In the demonstration which followed, however, she failed to remember a single formula in physics (the subject in which she was majoring), or the color of Hubbard's tie when his back was turned. At this point, a large part of the audience got up and left. Hubbard later produced a neat dianetic explanation for the fiasco.








Unfortunately, Hubbard and his disciples seemed to have a hard job clearing much besides some book royalties, and as rapidly as it burst into popularity, dianetics fell into disfavor.





As soon as Ron reached Philadelphia, after a flight from Spain marked by dramatic mishaps, we tried to find ways to equate the differences between us but he would not, or could not, understand. He seemed bent on a weird foxiness. He was terribly changed, almost a stranger. About the double-crossing in minor ways - yes, he agreed that it had occurred. But he had an explanation.





I know of several instances when members of families have returned from Los Angeles, home of Scientology's American Saint Hill Organization, or from England, or particularly from the Sea Org, one of Hubbard's floating sanctums, and for two days have impressed their loved ones with the love and purity which seems to glow from their very being. Then, because they are not surrounded by fellow Scientologists whose presence recharges their cells with the Right Words and predetermined responses to that constant expression of Scientology's truths, these people dim and darken. Nothing around them seems sufficiently real. It is as if they have come down off a very sweet and shining trip, and only a return to the safety of their Scientology world will restore their functioning realities.


One of the larger and more cunning aberrations that people have is that they do not like to be told what to do. In order to overcome this obvious weakness, there are processes (the CCH's mentioned earlier, for instance), and organisational policies to ram the point home that the only use Hubbard has for a follower or staff member is as someone who can follow his word with slavish devotion. He wants to hear of people getting better with Scientology. If someone does not get better in the correct, party-approved manner, then that person is maliciously going out of his way to make a fool of Hubbard and Scientologists. He is rejected as being so stupid as not to realise that here is the Road to Total Freedom.
In fact, the Scientologists haven't always returned the money either, and have sometimes set up certain conditions that have made it difficult for people to collect. The person must usually ask for his money within thirty (sometimes ninety) days after the course is completed. Some people have also been made to take the security test before they can get a refund. Others have signed a contract that obligates them to obey their Ethics Officer “in advice given me to facilitate my case progress and that any failure to do so renders this contract null and void without rebate.” (The Ethics Officer can, of course, tell them not to ask for their money back, because that would be hindering their progress, and tell them to facilitate it by signing up for more courses instead.


Ron was an amorphous thing, creating thetans by enslaving human beings, then eating their minds and souls, engorging them back into Source, bloating himself with thetans in his insatiable craving. This was being At Cause. This was the grotesque culmination of our noble, naive desire for freedom. He played with us as he played with his pack of creatures, and the evil he accused others of was his own creation.


From among a variety of scientology broadsides one may perhaps select, as representative of the next phase, an issue of Freedom Scientology which appeared early in 1969 as 'International Edition No. 1'. By this time, orthodox psychiatry had been branded by the scientologists as a system of murder, sexual perversion and monstrous cruelty, and the National Association for Mental Health as a criminally motivated 'psychiatric front group'. No one seemed to be taking much notice of these accusations, and new ways had to be found of hotting them up.
Slightly over half of this book is about Scientology, with good material on the early days of Dianetics, some amazing and hilarious material about OT wins, life at Saint Hill and aboard the ships, as well as good coverage of various Scientology offshoots, the E-Meter, and more. As organized religion has declined, new surrogate beliefs, many of them based on pseudoscientific rationality, have sprung up. These are what Dr. Christopher Evans calls the cults of unreason, man's attempt to fit technology to a religion-like belief. In many of these cults naivete and sophistication work side by side.




  • The Fuhrer Over est Jesse Kornbluth, New Times: Feature News Magazine, "Flirtation with Scientology", March 19, pages 29-52
The truth-seeker individuals were attracted to Dianetics when they came upon it at some point during a life-long search for meaning and truth. Science fiction, with its panoramic vision of man and the cosmos, also provided many with an insight into the meaning of life and human behaviour.



Contains essays previously published in US alternative newspapers in the early 1970s, and a series of letters between the Church of Scientology and the author.


The Scientology sect has a very poor reputation in many places. Very few of their numerous press releases are actually published by the press. However, the Scientology sect needs the press in their worldwide membership recruitment as a document of public acknowledgment. Because of this, articles about the cover companies are frequently found in advertisements internal to Scientology, where they are supposed to reinforce the view of members and their dependents. Since Scientology followers generally believe anything the sect puts in front of them, such articles also strengthen the self consciousness of the adherent as well as the coherence of the organization.


In fact, he was more than just a coroner's nark and it was some ten years later that, by a most remarkable coincidence, I learnt of Richard Wriggley's boast that he had been employed by the scientologists to break into my office and my villa to seize any documents on scientology that he could find. He claims he could find no files on the subject but his accurate description of both premises and his method of entry leave no doubt that his boast was genuine.
Cult advertisements and informal comments vary, but, in general, it is no longer boldly asserted that clears are geniuses or that they never get colds. Clear status has been mystified and subtly deflated. Even the most doctrinally learned Scientologists may be unsure exactly what palpable qualities a clear is supposed to manifest, other than confidence and loyalty to the cult. Therefore, new clears may not feel justified in criticizing the quality of the clear experience, but they still may want more than they have received. The original promise of clear, and much more, is offered by a still growing series of levels above clear, the operating thetan or “OT” statuses. The “first dynamic” overcome by clears is only one of eight dynamics, each representing a sphere of human motivation the first is the drive for personal survival.


In my Antioch review paper I was clearly wrong in predicting that interest in Hubbard would “soon subside.” Today, thirty years later dianetics, which became part of Hubbard's new “religion,” Scientology, is the backbone of one of the nation's biggest cockamamie cults.
The teachings of Scientology contain references to previous existences, prenatal influences, and future lives. And the clearing of the engrams from previous lives relates too much to the Hindu doctrine of karma and reincarnation to be coincidental.



There are various therapies that try to overcome the psychic scars of birth trauma. These therapies have much in common with Scientology – except that Scientology has taken the next logical step and tries to exorcise the traumatic engrams left from previous incarnations.



I declined to be audited, partly because of what I recalled of Hubbard when I saw him at Heinlein's party in Philadelphia before I went overseas. Hubbard was just back from the Aleutians then, hinting of desperate action aboard a navy destroyer, adventures he couldn't say much about because of military security. I recall his eyes, the wary, light-blue eyes that I somehow associate with the gunmen of the old West, watching me sharply as he talked as if to see how much I believed. Not much.


Large numbers of experienced and qualified staff were expelled in one major purge. The Church has remained implacably hostile to those it expelled in 1982 and those who have supported them. The Church regards itself as entitled to use active harassment tactics in the course of collecting evidence. It made use of private investigators for visible surveillance which also aimed to exert a degree of intimidation. The perceived injustice of this will give a continuing motivation to prove the Church wrong and themselves right. Thus the Church may by its own actions be contributing to the chances of the survival of the Independent Scientologists. The initial enthusiasm generated by those Scientologists who had fallen out with the Church did create a very heady and exciting atmosphere within the Independent movement. Whether this goodwill and cooperation will continue and be able to hold together a loose federation is in some doubt. Already signs of differing views can be detected.


As the sun streamed in through his window on that September afternoon, Flynn told me in his Boston Irish accent what had started him on his crusade against Hubbard and his church. 'This girl came to see me in 1979. They were doing awful things to her. Then they started doing awful things to me.' The girl was a former Scientologist and resident of Nevada named Lavenda van Schaick and the 'awful' things included attempts to get Flynn disbarred. Then there was the time when Flynn's private plane mysteriously acquired water in the fuel tanks and was forced to make an emergency landing.


Miller definitively covers L.Ron Hubbard and his family origins thoroughly researching his life chronologically while exploring and revealing a man who is a pathological liar and a fraud consumed by greed and paranoia. Includes an introduction by Chris Owen, and 22 photos, many of Hubbard's family.
This large book on Scientology is fairly disorganized but it remains a vital source of first-hand testimony from ex-Scientologists about life aboard Hubbard's ship, the Apollo, and many alarming accounts of illegal and criminal activities within Scientology. Includes 21 photos, mostly of Hubbard, and two illustrations that compare Scientology's cross to that of the infamous Aleister Crowley. Brian Ambry organized and wrote the addendum, the additional chapters and some revisions to existing chapters of the two later editions.
As to the deceased, these likewise are of little interest unless they are Scientologists or close relatives or friends of Scientologists. Admittedly, the world is teeming with bodiless thetans looking around for new bodies to “pick up” or just sulking in between lives. Occasionally, a Scientologist will bump into one of these in predictable haunts.



The following is an account of my life in Scientology, a group I was involved in from December 1970 to August of 1976 -- about 5 years and 9 months. From 1973 to 1975 I lived aboard the Flagship Apollo (“Flag”), the home of L. Ron Hubbard, the founder of Dianetics and Scientology. On Flag, I trained to be an auditor (a Scientology counselor). My life on Flag was a continual roller-coaster of ups and downs. One day I would receive a personal commendation from Hubbard and be held up as an example of what a Flag auditor should be and then, just months later, Hubbard would take away all my certificates and send me to the RPF (Scientology's prison camp) for an auditing error I did not even commit.


It was 1950, in the early, heady days of Dianetics, soon after L. Ron Hubbard opened the doors of his first organization to the clamoring crowd. Up until then, Hubbard was known only to readers of pulp fiction, but now he had an instant best-seller with a book that promised to solve every problem of the human mind, and the cash was pouring in. Hubbard found it easy to create schemes to part his new following from their money. One of the first tasks was to arrange “grades” of membership, offering supposedly greater rewards, at increasingly higher prices. Over thirty years later an associate wryly remembered Hubbard turning to him and confiding, no doubt with a smile, “Let's sell these people a piece of blue sky.” Preface by Russell Miller.


By the time his three musketeers arrived, Frank Thompson had his hand around my neck as if I were a spring chicken waiting to be slaughtered. My eyeglasses had landed on the ground after the fifth or sixth time Frank smashed my skull into the wall. The four members of the Org's goon squad paraded me down the stairs from the Org's second floor Ethics Office like a group of armed guards from the KGB. As I tripped when I hit the bottom step, Humberto kicked me harshly in my left ankle, causing me to flinch. Frank, who was still holding me by the neck, yanked my head as hard as he could because I took the time to examine my leg for injuries. Although I was visibly being forced and shoved down the hallway, the three staff members who we passed along the way did not show even the slightest emotion.
“We have a job for you to do,” he said abruptly. “Something that will satisfy your Liability Formula. A few blocks from here there is a psychiatrist's office. A man who has been causing us some problems with the American Psychiatric Association. It's not important for you to know what those problems are.” He stopped and cleared his throat. “What we want you to do is to get into his office. Pretend to be a patient or do whatever you want. Somewhere on his bookshelf there should be a directory of all the psychiatrists in the United States. We need that directory. Also anything else you can get us. Financial information. Names of some of his clients. That's all
The raw man-to-man approach of Book One (“Dianetics”) auditing gave way to an unwavering rigidity. Auditing stopped being the solution-finding dialogue between two people and was turned into a ritualistic exercise, an application of rote procedures to all and sundry.
Includes reports on The Children of God, The Unification Church (Moonies), ISKCON (Hare Krishna), Latter-day Saints church (Mormons), Scientology, The London Church of Christ, Rajneesh, Jehovah's Witnesses, Therapy cults, New age cults, Satanism.
Many of us considered Training Routines to be innocuous; yet we were aware they were part of something destructive, and didn't know how to sort out the connection. The feeling of lucidity produced by TRs is merely a subjective state. The group tells you how to think about that state, such as “you are more in present time.” The suggestion is that you are less suggestible and you buy it because you are in a highly suggestible state. TRs are just one more device to enforce agreement and compliance. At least they're more fun than ethics.



Pressman, a San Francisco-based journalist, offers a compelling account of Werner Erhard (AKA Jack Rosenberg) who after taking a few Scientology courses rose from selling used cars to peddling personal transformation. Erhard’s original plan was to present the Scientology basic communications course to a hundred or more people at a time, and pay Scientology a percentage of the take but, like Hubbard, Erhard progressed from a tireless, aggressive proselytizer to a psychotic egomaniac.


During the weeks of an auditing course, the participant is expressly forbidden from discussing what is occurring with anyone (particularly family and friends) other than his particular auditor. That is a daily session in a highly aroused state where the participant is at the mercy of the auditor’s questions, and isolated over that time from any balancing perceptions and opinions. This number and frequency of sessions is considered by Scientologists to be the minimum needed. The sessions are made even more powerful by the fact that they are of two and a half hours’ duration, which means in every session a person is also going into a period of natural hypnosis.
From these Smersh-like secret directives Hubbard is basically directing his fanatical followers to take over world finance; take over world political leaders and to take over mental health on the planet. This is completely consistent with classical Satanism in that he is talking almost exclusively about taking over secular power: political, financial, health and media power not spiritual power.


Kaj Moos, a danish author writing in english and danish, made this list of incidents paving the bad way of that cult. Hundreds upon hundreds of facts, lots of suits and their results.
Margaret Thaler Singer calls on her nearly fifty years of expertise to write the definitive book on cults. Anyone--no matter what age or income level--could be susceptible to the covert and seductive nature of a cult. People are especially vulnerable to these masterful manipulators during periods of traumatic life changes: a college student away from home for the first time, a grief-stricken widow in need of understanding and support, or a businessperson transferred by his or her employer to a new and unfamiliar community. Written with author and former cult member Janja Lalich, Singer's first book is a shocking exposé that reveals what cults are and how they work. Cults in Our Midst offers vital information on how to help people escape cult entrapments and recover from the experience.
Systematic failures of the Scientology organization too numerous to count (at the cost of the individual, so that it has to do with the sum of millions and therefore with existence) led to the conclusion that thoughts and actions inherent to the system caused the failed developments. A lack of the ability for internal criticism shattered any attempt for correction. Scientology sees itself as the “end point of the quest” for people. Lies, defamation, coerced experiments, the radical uprooting of business relations and similar experiences give rise to the suspicion that an elite group is occupying itself in a Machiavellian manner with the defense of its position and sinecure.
The escalating pattern of cult fanaticism and religious-political terror that the authors call a 'death spiral' seems to be widening. If we do nothing to understand and ultimately reverse that pattern, it will pull more and more innocent people into its vortex. Conway and Siegelman place cultic behavior in the wider context of the communication revolution of our time. Indeed, SNAPPING unfolds as a traveling detective investigation, they very capably trace and analyze the course of the phenomenon.


What I was going to learn on OT3, was how to telepathically locate these other entities of mine and audit them through the nuclear explosion and implanting that occurred 75,000,000 years ago. Then these entities would be freed, and able to fly off and find a body of their own. I hardly heard the Supervisor when he announced the lunch break. My mind was spinning. As we walked to lunch, I had a peculiar sensation. I felt like my mind had just locked up, frozen in time. I couldn't believe what I had just read, it was too incredible. But I was too brainwashed to disbelieve. So my mind simply froze, unable to process anything at all. It was at this point that my symptoms, the terrifying anxiety attacks, began to return in full force.


I understood too late that, without knowing what I was doing, I had “supplied” Helnwein with countless world stars, many of whom were my friends, and that I had served a system without my being aware of it. I noticed that his artistic productivity which he presented on the outside was, for the most part, feigned. He would spend months in the USA, in Clearwater and Los Angeles, without painting one picture.



After Parsons’ initial contact with the astral plane during this second working, Hubbard began acting as seer, although Parsons continued to call him “Scribe” in his notes, and it was actually he who was “scrying in the Aethyr” while Parsons took notes.
The transmitter may be more than one individual: it can be a group, even the cult itself in its totality. But in every case, the two-fold requirement of credibility and attraction leads cults to use figureheads who are constantly spreading the word. This is the basis of Scientology's “celebrity centers


Drug addicts are just one of the Scientologists' targets for recruitment. The offer of care and healing through techniques derived from dianetics is only a come-on. The detoxification of the patient by means of “Purification Rundown” is more a matter of manipulation through the general weakening that it causes; it is a way of brainwashing the subject.


Osborne went on to highlight several aspects of Scientology that she believed added to its attraction. One of these aspects was Hubbard's claim that the technology could end war. In a statement first printed in 1965 but periodically reproduced for years afterward, Hubbard announced the world has an optimistic five years left, a pessimistic two.



Scientologists thought they only needed to clear their Thetan, but now Hubbard tells them they have body Thetans and clusters to be rid of. This keeps them bound to the church for longer periods trying to achieve salvation. Hubbard tells them that some of these body Thetans have been asleep on their Thetan for seventy-five million years. Hubbard also believes he went back four quadrillion years ago (give or take a few years).


On their own, none of the pre-trial problems we were having to sort out were huge, but collectively they seemed so, particularly against the backdrop of all the hassle we had experienced, together with six years of trying to deal with legal procedures and documents which were way out of our range. Add to all that the fact that I had not been sleeping well, so a ringing phone was not a sound I particularly wanted to hear.
The registrar had good rapport, gave me a lot of attention, love and sympathy to get my trust. I was frightened but at the same time wanted help. I told her my story and revealed my problem of fear of women. At one point, to be sure that she had my ruin, she pushed my buttons on it, causing me to fall to the floor crying. Once they get you, Scientology uses extremely hard sell techniques to get money from you. I was sold various services, including life repair auditing. In order to pay for these services, which amounted to thousands of dollars, I sold some stock that I had gotten from my grandmother. I also had to sell my car, a two year old Toyota Tercel.


Hubbard himself died in the mid-’80s. By the end, he had become a rather unhappy man, living in a rather unhappy, Howard Hughes-like fashion—reportedly believing, at various times, that his cooks were trying to poison him; and demanding that his dirty clothes be washed thirteen times, in thirteen different buckets of clean spring water, before he would wear them.



This book is a remarkable insight into the murky world of Scientology. It's quite a page-turner, particularly towards the end, when John realises that Scientology is not what he believed it to be. What is remarkable is John's obvious intelligence and raw ability, enabling him to climb to various leadership positions around the world. The story of how he discovered the lies at the centre of Scientology is a case study in emerging skepticism.


A prominent Los Angeles Psychiatrist suggested that Dianetics was little more than a ‘clever scheme to dip into the pockets of the gullible’, and that a Dianetics auditor was just another name for a ‘witch doctor’ exploiting ‘real need with phoney methods’.
The accusations went on and on, for more than an hour. I was screamed at, accused of every crime under the sun, and finally assigned a “lowered condition.” I finally left, broken and very confused. We had just ended the biggest book sales year in the history of Scientology. I had been responsible for the sales of millions of books. Dianetics was on all the major bestseller lists. Why was I the subject of a vicious personal attack? It made no sense. And there was no explanation forthcoming.


The author has a good sense of humor while at the same time detailing the horrors of his slave-like existence as a captive Scientologist whose parents were in the organization and who was forced to attend Scientology schools, do Scientology course work, and who, out of desperation, joined the sea-org at fifteen. The punitive, coercive, and sadistic nature of the organization and the horrors he lived through are vividly told in a chilling, conversational account of event upon event showing how dramatically dysfunctional the workings of the organization were, and how rooted in personal power and emotional blackmail.
I later taught Miscavige much of his initial corporate knowledge in 1981 and then under Miscavige oversaw similar rudiments program compliances for the next couple of years. Some of us who planned and carried out organized scientology's corporate reorganization in late 1981 and 1982 planned to actually get corporate integrity into organized scientology but this was thwarted by Miscavige and Hubbard.
A moving story detailing some of the horrible practices used by Scientology's leadership to keep the membership in line and to milk money from those 'believers' and followers of L. Ron Hubbard. Nancy Many demonstrates what happens to the mind when totalitarian tactics and policies are used to control the individual and the thought processes that occur which result in a person staying in scientology despite these dehumanizing tactics used against them. It is a very personal story, and it shows how Scientology messes with people's minds irresponsibly.
Another way we learned was with plasticine. We would make demos of a scenario or idea to explain it in form, labelling each action to explain what it implied. My earliest memory involving Scientology was from my childhood, when I was about four years old playing with plasticine. I came out of the demo room to a bunch of adults toasting around a mantel piece of a man's head. I was told it was L.Ron's birthday.


I personally felt uneasy as a 14 year old asking strangers much older than me about what's ruining their lives. Therefore, I pretty much skipped that part and just went directly to “Come with me!” Surprisingly a lot of people did! Once I turned these people over to the experienced Public Registrars, I was out the door again.
I entered Scientology at the age of eighteen, a shy and emotionally disturbed teenager, a psychological survivor of a painfully dysfunctional family. I had little confidence or self-esteem. Within months, I was transformed into an aggressive, radical Scientologist. As a result of daily hypnotic rituals and an unending barrage of propaganda form “bulletins” and tapes, I was completely indoctrinated and fiercely dedicated to the group.


But the 2001 Census returns revealed a very different picture from the Church's figures. In England and Wales 1,781 people said they were Scientologists, less than 1.5 per cent of the number the Church claims. The 2001 Census figures for other English-speaking countries were similarly low.
The Scott case brought about the end of the Cult Awareness Network and marked a significant turning point in the anticult movement in the United States. The final irony, however, took place in bankruptcy court in 1996, as CAN's logo, furniture, and phone number were auctioned off. Stephen Hayes, a Scientologist, outbid Cynthia Kisser herself and won what remained of CAN's assets for $20,000. Today, New CAN is in fact an advocate of religious tolerance and freedom that is undoing the negative biases of anticult groups like the old CAN.
De Vocht witnessed numerous séances, including those where Miscavige himself would stand up and reveal someone's crimes, having combed through their auditing folders. Well, people had very little sleep, they were eating rice and beans, they were half psychotic from working such long hours, and they'd go into a frenzy.


She had me there. L. Ron Hubbard defines sex, marriage, and children as a vector along which all beings survive, a unit that generates more power than the sum of its parts. It was our duty to marry optimally, so we'd generate more power for the Sea Org. Molly took hold of my shirtfront and pulled me across the table, close to her face.
This book is a behind-the-forehead look inside the mind of someone addicted to Scientology, heading towards a brain-tranquilized stupor. Using Scientology, Vance gets everything that a powerfully psychoactive drug can offer. Mind-blowing highs, deep insights, harsh come-downs and depression. Crooked dealers and overdoses. Withdrawal, suffering, craving and relapse. Self-annihilation, loneliness, financial ruin and the inevitable abyss. The metaphor isn’t one. Yes, Scientology is a drug.
When I had MY nervous breakdowns in Scientology, I was also sent to the RPF, then located on the ship Excalibur, which was moored in Long Beach, California. When you have a nervous breakdown in Scientology, it is YOUR fault - you have “pulled it in,” and you will routinely be sentenced to life in the RPF. Life in the RPF is not pretty, or fun. Long hours and hard labor are the norm.
I sometimes advise people who are recently out of Scientology to stop using the terminology, and stop thinking in the terminology. That's not because the terminology is “wrong,” or “bad” necessarily, but some of the words and phrases may function as thought-terminating clichés. If you deliberately avoid talking and thinking in the terminology for a while, you force yourself to think things through newly rather than falling back on a pat phrase.
On one or two occasions Clark and his sister joined his mother on the elite “Sea Org” ships, where celebrities are “audited”, but they didn’t last in the bizarre environment. Instead of studying engineering, as he had been promised, Clark was made to swab decks for 12 hours at a time. Bruce Clark’s teenaged sister once spent three days in a chain locker. He was fortunate, he only got thrown overboard and he at least could swim. “Using the term wog made me feel better about myself. It took me half my life to realise that deep down bigots are not at peace with themselves and do not really like who they are
Louis Farrakhan has totally done away with the Honorable Elijah Muhammad and his original teachings and has replaced them with L. Ron Hubbard's Scientology mumbo jumbo comic book garbage. The believers who follow Farrakhan are in a matrix of sorts, and this is the metaphoric “Red Pill,” my diary.

“There is no civil or ecclesiastical crime within Scientology Inc. that cannot be forgiven and forgotten for a price. Status among Scientologists is now measured by how much money they are able to fork over to the church. In essence, the worth of a person is gauged by his or her wealth.” Published in small, paperback format for easy, concealed conveyance into and out of corporate Scientology influenced organizations, businesses and homes. To survive within that closed society, one must learn to comfortably ignore all news media, all websites, and all friends, family and associates who might impart some of the facts we are discussing in this book. What is the most effective means for accomplishing that? The answer is to train oneself to consider that all news media, all websites, all friends, family and associates who do not agree one hundred percent with Scientology are not worthy of consideration. In other words, carry around an automatic consideration that such sources are wrong, while also considering that one’s corporate-Scientology frame of mind is always right.


We got calluses and blisters. We had cuts and bruises. Our hands lost feeling when we plunged them into the frigid water of the creek bed for rocks. When we pulled weeds from the scorched summer earth, our hands burned from the friction and stung from the nettle. The conditions we worked under would have been tough for a grown man, and yet any complaints, backflashing, any kind of questioning was instantly met with disciplinary action.
Sweeney tells the full story of his experiences for the first time and paints a devastating picture of this strange organisation, from former Scientologists who tell heartbreaking stories of families torn apart and lives ruined to its current followers who say it is the solution to many of mankind's problems.
On August 31, 1948, Hubbard pleaded guilty in a San Luis Obispo, California, court to charges of petty theft for passing bad checks. He was fined $25. Scientology claims he was a Special Police Officer with LAPD, studying society's criminal elements.
Imagine getting to the end of the road, still possibly having major issues you’d like to have handled. I would imagine some people could get quite confused, spinny, mad or feel fucked over by such a brush-off end result. Parked out in nowhere and asked to contribute their lives to get the next level released – at the whim of the Church’s management. All the while being demanded to uphold a perfect facade of a happy opinion leader to the rest of the foot soldiers. A perfect exterior, interior in shambles. I am not saying this is how the majority of OT 8s feel after completing the level. But I know of several that have had some serious issues and even contemplating suicide after reaching such a spiritual dead end hostage situation – where you get the next fix only if you give your heart and soul to a greedy management.
To get the inside story I seek out the great-grandson of L. Ron Hubbard, the founder of Scientology. To gain a better understanding of these beliefs and practices, I experience them. I'm the sole member of the congregation at a Church of Scientology service, where L. Ron Hubbard's science fiction stories are told as sermons.
Miscavige's title was head of Special Project Ops, a mysterious post, and he reported only to Pat Broeker. As gatekeepers, they determined what information reached Hubbard's ears. Under their regency, some of Hubbard's most senior executives were booted out - people who might have been considered competitors to Miscavige and Broeker in the future management of the church - and replaced by much younger counterparts.
What Scientologists don’t want you to know is exactly what was in those letters to the South African ministers. They’ve gone out of their way to airbrush Hubbard’s craven fawning over the apartheid government, specifically, his gushing praise for the father of the racist ideology, Dr Hendrik Verwoerd.
As the months have unfolded, I have continued to peel away the layers of embedded judgemental thoughts and other mental traps that I got myself into by being a part of these organizations. After more than a year I finally started to publicly speak out, and found that there are many, many details of personal experiences that they don't want others to know about. Part of my healing process and taking responsibility for participating is to share the truth of those events in order to hopefully help others.

In the dispatch, Hubbard matter-of-factly detailed how psychs are a special breed of being. He said they were raised and trained on a planet called Farsec. They were sent to Earth in order to keep its population under control, ignorant, obedient and slave-like. Earth is a prison planet, he said, and most of its inhabitants were pirates, rebels or artists, millions of years before being deposited here by a regressive inter-galactic government. The psychs were also assigned to see that no mental or spiritual technology arose that might expose the nefarious plot. They had always been with us on Earth. Before the advent of psychiatry, they had been priests and shamans.


Groups historically referred to as “cults”, such as Scientology, may arguably be in decline.
This is a scholarly work regarding human trafficking in Russia and the plight of victims brought to the US Church of Scientology. Araxia was the mother of two children who came to Clearwater, Florida as Scientologists and ended up as slaves.
People who have done the Clearing Course still had their specific aberrations and some committed suicide. They’re not “Clear” by Scientology descriptions and advertisements of what that state is supposed to be. On the Scientology OT levels, the reason for your irrational behavior is the body thetans. It is another case of blame and offering up another outside reason for your bad actions. The same idea stated about the Reactive Mind, applies to the body thetans. It is just part of Scientology spin.
It has often been asserted that Scientology and Dianetics are hypnotic in nature, Hubbard made his own point on this subject: “You can control men like you would control robots with those techniques … we've got some new ways to make slaves here.” Although Hubbard claimed that he took nothing from Scientology, by the time he died, he had accumulated $648 million. Given this evidence, it is hard to think of Scientology as anything more than a moneymaking scam, but there is far more to this story.


Martiniano reiterated his 100 percent conviction that Alverzo was a spy, sent into the G.O. to bring about its downfall, put LRH on the run, and allow someone like Miscavige, who was also a plant, to take control. By my estimate seventy-five percent of all Scientologists want to see a change in Scientology leadership. They keep a very low profile, though, many of them waiting for the right moment to spring into action.
By 2010, most of my Scientology books had been dumped, unceremoniously, into the recycling bin. However, I had kept one for further analysis: Introduction to Scientology Ethics. I had felt for some time that this book formed the core of Scientology’s mental manipulation techniques. In the Sea Org, anyone who steps out of line is forced to restudy this book over and over again, until they practically know it by heart. It is the go-to book used by the organization when any member begins to doubt or question Scientology. And anyone who steps out of line in any Scientology Organization is sent to the “Ethics Officer,” who uses the principles in this book to pull them back into line.
Explores 20th and 21st Century cults and the 1960's American culture by which many of them were birthed. From Then Manson Family to The Ripper Crew to Scientology, Cults provides an in-depth look at America's religious and social cults, their nefarious leaders, and the millions of lives they have stolen.
As more funds were bled off, veteran staff in the kitchen and elsewhere did not receive their pay checks. Some weeks only a small advance on pay was given in cash. Eventually, valued staff, such as cooks, quit without notice, and students were pressed behind the kitchen counters and grills. So vampirish was this cult, that even I and the other four staff recruits didn’t receive our mere $90 net pay for our week’s work — only a few bucks in cash to tie us over till the next let-down.
Explaining his ideas about L. Ron Hubbard and Scientology’s “technology,” George provides a lengthy personal take and harsh critique of Hubbard’s creation considered against the long history of human ideas. In the latter parts of the book George talks about his experience on the Freewinds.
I had enough of the insatiable greed of Scientology. My only regret at this point was that it took so long – 10 years of hard work as a virtual slave and throwing 50,000 USD out the window. All the bitterness that had accumulated over these long years came out in a big burst of anger – I screamed at the guy for using Mafia tactics and I told him I would not pay a fucking cent. My conscience was clear, I added, I did everything they asked and if they did not like the type of amends I did, they should get back to me in writing.
Over 30 years ago, when I left Scientology, it became apparent to me that cults are a microcosm of the larger society, where powerful social forces are played out. My investigation into the secret world of manipulation, undue influence and brainwashing has included every type of group from the interpersonal to the international.
Yes, Hubbard did say there is a guy named Xenu and he did horrible things so many millions of years ago, and this involved volcanoes. What most people who are relating this story get wrong is the significance.
Leah Remini’s remarkable journey toward emotional and spiritual freedom, both for herself and for her family. This is a memoir designed to reveal the hard-won truths of a life lived honestly—from an author unafraid of the consequences.
The Times' ongoing series, "Inside Scientology," launched with an installment called "The Truth Rundown," published in June of 2009. That initial work — the focus of this book — shed unprecedented light on the internal workings of a secretive church that generates interest around the world.
Under the direction of its malignant creator, L. Ron Hubbard, Scientology developed an intelligence agency second only to the infamous KGB in its infiltration of western government agencies. The Guardian’s Office was a formidable and fanatical organization, which campaigned relentlessly to protect Hubbard from prosecution and successfully dissuaded or ruined most of Scientology’s critics. Paulette Cooper was a prime target. She was preyed upon by agents, who inserted themselves into her private life and referred to her as “Miss Lovely” in their reports. She was framed for a bomb threat and indicted. She was subjected to a whispering campaign, where her neighbours were assured she was a child molester. The attack was relentless and very nearly caused her to take her own life.


So how did it come to this? Why did the Australian government have to provide a protection visa for José Navarro on the grounds that a religious organisation it deems a tax-exempt charity had trafficked him? How could a church that claims to believe in freedom and human rights enslave and traffic its members? How could a church that in its own religious creed says ‘that all men have inalienable rights to their own lives’ separate a loving couple who wanted to get married and have a child, and force the woman to have an abortion? How could a church use Australia as a penal colony in the 21st century?
At one point while they were surveilling him, Ron fumbled with a smartphone in his shirt pocket and clutched at his chest. From their vantage point, the two private eyes got the impression that Ron was having a heart attack. They told police that when they called their handler for instructions, David Miscavige came on the line and told them to do nothing. “If he dies, he dies,” Miscavige reportedly said.
My enthusiasm for scientology was akin to being drafted for an army. If it expected anything of me, I dropped everything to do it. I would serve, no questions asked.
In the Church of Scientology's inner organization, the Sea Org, the induction process famously involves signing a billion year contract - one's commitment is therefore cemented for all possible future lives. This induction ritual is visited upon old and young alike. Jenna Miscavige Hill, born into the church, reports that she was made to sign this document when only 7 years old.


While Peter, Terri and I had been involuntarily living a life of servitude to LRH and Mary Sue, Dad, having no idea what our lives were really like, pursued his life as a Scientologist and Mum worked for the Sea Org in America
Therapists can use this book as a primer to bring themselves up to speed on the topic. It is - until such time as they decide if they want to take more formal training in order to help former cult members reclaim their authentic self and rebuild a self-directed life - a useful reference tool for therapists who need to inform themselves about cult abuse and its aftermath.
On her first day in school, she was allocated a personal supervisor or trainer, in this case a young man from the coast. He explained to her that she would have to undergo a daily “auditing” procedure before entering the classroom. According to Christine, “auditing” in this context means “telling secrets.” She found his behavior intrusive and totally ignorant of taboos and rules in the conduct of social relationships in Bena. In terms of Bena exchange, the new guests aimed at taking on detached parts of Bena persons—here in the form of their personal secrets—and thus increase their strength and their power over them … resembled negative forms of Bena exchange and were therefore structurally similar to harmful sorcery and witchcraft.
Robert's personal life as a member of the European mothership of Scientology right in the center of the Danish capital until he defected in 2004 is hair-raising reading. Scientology’s paranoid world view and the strict control of its members and critics make an alarming pivot point in the author's story as well as the story of the movement itself.
They lived in shared quarters with other couples where they had no more than a bedroom to themselves. Karen gave up contact with family and former friends and experienced the constant coercion of the church in every aspect of life. After 16 years serving in the higher levels of Scientology, the veil of deception lifted from Karen's eyes. Following two failed attempts to leave, she successfully disentangled herself from Scientology on her third attempt, but that action resulted in a divorce from her husband of 20 years.
Two young men who grew up in Scientology recall the beginning of their indoctrination sessions. A young women who was raised in Scientology recalls the way her fifth-grade classmates were deployed to bring her back into the fold. Children born or raised in cults have very different experiences and aftereffects than individuals who join as adults, and their stories can help you understand cults in valuable new ways. Of equal importance, we focus on the fortitude and resilience that helped these children resist, break free, and heal from mistreatment, loss, and trauma.
Janicello's candor reveals an ebullient personality and a troubled man, fraught with human weakness. After unsuccessful trips to the famed “Scientology Celebrity Center” in Los Angeles to gather support from John Travolta, Priscilla and Lisa Marie Presley, Tom Cruise, Kirstie Alley, Jenna Elfman and others, Janicello soon came to the terrible realization that he had been abandoned.
This is not just Kay's memoir, but a story that needs to be told of harsh abuse, medical neglect and voracious greed all under the banner of a religion which claims to be saving this planet and the universe. From her early days getting involved in Scientology in Santa Barbara to joining the elite Sea Organization and slaving for pennies a day, there are no stones left unturned.
Approaches the study of Scientology from multiple viewpoints, enabling readers to have an informed, multicultural perspective on the religious group's beliefs and practices from which to form their own opinion, and presents information about Scientology derived from one of the largest university archive collections on the subject worldwide, with a number of documents never before having been referenced in scholarship.
If this book stops just one person from joining Scientology, or re-unites one Scientologist with a family member, I have successfully told my story.


From being raped as a child to being forced into slave labor existence as a closeted adolescent, to the systematic removal of everyone he ever loved you will feel the desperation of seeking the cosmic answers even when in the end it cannot save him from his own agreed upon fates. This self reflective life path, is expressed in two distinctive voices, that of the writers himself, and the other his own souls.
When one loses a child through death, I know there is immense grieving and sorrow, but there is a time of fond memories too of the good times and eventually a time of closure. I too have those wonderful memories, but my heart will not release this heavy sorrow because I still have HOPE. The only thing that will bring me closure is to be able to hug my children once again and tell them, IN PERSON, how much I love them. That is my everlasting HOPE.
The best reporting from The Underground Bunker, edited and updated with new material that widely covers the issues of L. Ron Hubbard's infamous church, Scientology's celebrities, strange Scientology deaths, the disappearance of church leader David Miscavige's wife Shelly, Scientology's spy operations and dirty tricks, as well as early church history and its attempt to seek immortality.
As more and more ports denied entry to the Apollo, Hubbard crossed the Atlantic to the somewhat friendlier waters of the Caribbean, though still harassed by numerous agencies including the U.S. State Department, FBI, Interpol among others. This harrowing journey takes you from October 1970 until October 1975, when L. Ron Hubbard and Scientology headquarters moved from his personal yacht to land in the United States.
A memoir of a life that became involved in a secret society masquerading as a religion in Hollywood that practices magic and domination. This body of work could have been about you if you were contacted or chosen like I was. Buckle up and get ready to be changed in your thinking forever.
In this candid and nuanced memoir, Hall recounts her spiritual and artistic journey with a visceral affection for language, delighting in the way words can create a shared world. However, as Hall begins to grasp how purposefully Hubbard has created the unique language of Scientology—in the process isolating and indoctrinating its practitioners—she confronts how language can also be used as a tool of authoritarianism.
I accepted my role of agent provocateur with enthusiastic relish. It was better than being Batman. Accompanying me behind enemy lines was an ex-GO staff member who was now a public Scientologist. I thought it was cool that I’d be working with a veteran of Church counter-intelligence operations who’d be showing me the ropes. My part in this high-tech caper wasn’t much. OSA only needed me as a “front” to set up a personal internet account with a service provider. It worked this way: An OSA staff member or volunteer would log on to a newsgroup and start canceling messages.
“Fuck you!” I jumped to my feet and swirled around the table toward the door. I had had enough of this bullshit. Wasted half a day! I knew Barry couldn't stop me. He was too small, and he was an American. I wasn't. Having grown up as a Jew in the urban jungle in the Soviet days, my affliction with American civilities was purely superficial. Expecting some meek resistance, I was ready to shove Barry out of the way, when I was suddenly and inexplicably stopped dead in my track by his hand on my shoulder, his calm and friendly expression and especially his firm, “Sit down in that chair” which cut right through, it seemed, all the way down to my motor control center in the brain or something. Obviously something went very wrong. What the hell is this? I thought, bewildered.
In this tell-all memoir, Michelle offers an insider’s perspective on Scientology’s pervasive influence, secret rituals, and ruthless practices for keeping members in line. It’s a story of self-acceptance, of finding the strength and courage to stand up for your emotional freedom, and of love prevailing.
My involvement with the Church of Scientology spans a quarter century where I got most of the way up The Bridge and did scores of courses, trained as an auditor and did Admin training as well. I hope I show how in this strange environment a man can lose sight of what matters to him, his goals, values and passions, himself and the reason he joined the church in the first place.
Born into Scientology, Nathan resisted indoctrination from the start. Eventually he was sent to the cult’s infamously abusive Mace Kingsley Ranch, at age 8. He was sent again to the ranch at age 14, where he was not allowed contact with his family for nearly 3 years. After finally getting away, his family disowned him. He lived for 7 long years homeless and without hope. Drugs, violence and despair plagued his mind until he was finally able to rise out of the gutter, face his past and live in the present.
At the age of 17, as one of the first residents of the “Big Blue” (the landmark building in Los Angeles), she not only witnessed the largest FBI raid in history, she was also a member of the infamous 1977 PAC RPF (Rehabilitation Project Force) where she pulled 18-hour shifts performing heavy labor to renovate the new headquarters. What followed were years of sleepless nights as a member of the United States Guardian’s Office while the Church battled the government to keep L. Ron Hubbard’s wife, Mary Sue Hubbard, out of jail for her role in illegal government break-ins known as Operation Snow White. Sandra left in the 80’s only to find herself haunted by the ghosts of the Church for decades.


This notion of idealism being a close cousin of zealotry was central to what interested me about the Church – especially wrapped in the bizarre trappings of the sci-fi space opera – and it took me back, in a pleasurable way, to my Weird Weekends days of people passionate about nonsense in a way that was comical and troubling and sad, but with some of the seriousness and maturity of the later shows mixed in. I wrote up a film treatment that developed these ideas.
This abortion was one of several that I had while in Scientology. I think, before it was all over, I had six abortions. I lost count. I was so lonely that I often traded sex for perceived attention and love. Whenever I got pregnant, I had an abortion. That’s just how it was. I was told to do it and I did what I was told to do. I didn’t know any better. Also, we were encouraged to get people into Scientology no matter how we did it. That included having sex with potential recruits.
This eye-opening life-experience of a child, born into, and raised according to the beliefs of the Church of Scientology, soon joining the militant-structured higher echelons of the church as a staff member, is an extremely informative tell-all of how the church takes hold on one's life completely and utterly. Many people in this day and age, have heard of this church, but are unaware of the scope of its reach, and the depth of its grips in our society's structure.
Hubbard had a long history of denigrating the loyalty of those around him. In 1940, he wrote to the FBI to denounce the steward of the New York hotel where he was staying as a Nazi spy, and on his last day in Australia he took the time to denounce several people in Brisbane as supposed Japanese and German agents. After founding Dianetics in 1950, he denounced numerous colleagues and ex-employees — and even his own wife — as supposed Russian agents. There’s no sign that any of his denunciations were taken seriously, and an FBI agent wrote, “appears mental,” on one of his letters of denunciation.
Written by a Never In for Never Ins this is a Primer, intended to explain some of the strange concepts and strip away the false face Scientology shows to the world of a benign humanitarian organization albeit one with some quirky beliefs revealing the dangerous truth; this is a cult motivated by paranoia and greed, founded by a mentally ill conman that deals in abuse, lies and fear through insidious policies and practices.
Seduced by the celebrity that lured her into Scientology and their magic promises to fix her broken life, Carol buried herself in the concepts and philosophies of L. Ron Hubbard. Meanwhile, she hopelessly denied and hid her own underlying mental illness which went on untreated because of her belief in a doctrine that made psychiatry out to be an evil hoax.
Robin was one of the three people who conspired to get a “New Era Dianetics for Operating Thetans” (NOTs) pack out of the Church of Scientology. After Robin scoped the place out, the other two dressed up in full Sea Org uniform and entered AOSH EU in Copenhagen on the 9th of December, 1983, claiming they were missionaires from the Religious Technology Center. They went to the Senior Case Supervisor and demanded the NOTs materials for inspection. They also wanted a room where they could check out the materials undisturbed. They were given both. Later that day the Snr C/S could not find the two people anymore. They were gone and so was the NOTs pack.


For over a half century, countless people have suffered severe misadventures after encountering the mysterious legacy of L. Ron Hubbard and his ever puzzling brainchild: Scientology, a subject that continues to intrigue, baffle and perplex the general public as well as the many critics it has attracted. L. Ron Hubbard - The Tao of Insanity attempts a deep delve to unravel the tapestry of his insanity.
Diana’s story manages to be an upsetting and an inspiring read at the same time. The shocking events recounted in it do not take place in a remote location or in the Middle Ages, but in a modern-day European capital – a few years ago in Budapest, to be exact.
A broken young man tossed out of his home. Hitch-hiking across America, panhandling, stealing doing whatever to survive. Then disillusioned and desperate for answers to the emptiness inside he became involved with Scientology as a staff member working in Detroit, Michigan. Realizing later that he was trapped in a religious cult that had him under their control - he began to cry out to God to help him escape from Scientology. God answered.
After experiencing a deep personal, spiritual, familial and financial crisis, Lucas Catton chronicles his time over the course of a decade of rebuilding his life. The road from mental anguish to redemption and then transcendence has been a learning experience that brought him to his knees, literally and figuratively, and then to standing proud with renewed confidence and self-respect, as well as more meaningful connections with others and life as a whole.
So many people are being deceptively swayed to become members of Scientology and shockingly unable to get out. Some of the jaw-dropping topics you will uncover are: Why is Scientology so interested in celebrities? How is Scientology connected to occult practices? What are Scientology's tactics to keep their membership strong? What is Scientology's answer to Shelly's disappearance? This book will give you the necessary tools needed to witness to a member of Scientology and open their eyes to the false teachings they have been under.


Billiontology is the first in a series written by a trained philosopher and non-Scientologist that goes into Scientology's logical, rational, and conceptual flaws.
Scientology actually offers a whole upper-level course extravagantly titled Key to Life where you word-clear all the grammatical basics—conjunctions, determiners, single-letter words. “Can you imagine having to look up the word ‘of’?” Cathy asked me. (As a linguist, I actually could, yes, though certainly not on Scientology’s terms.) Graduating from Key to Life is considered extremely prestigious just because you’ve invested so many hours of tedium.
Tracing the beginning of Scientology from a self-help method of therapy (Dianetics) into a business and then into the semblance of a religion, in order to evade regulation by professional organizations and avoid paying taxes to the U.S. Government. The book demonstrates the lack of integrity of L. Ron Hubbard, a former Science Fiction author who created a fictional autobiography and this complex system of interlocking organizations whose purpose is to generate money for its top officials.
Feel the emotional impact through the gripping illustrations that share Brian's devastating journey. Discover how the Church of Scientology hypnotizes their members and uses mind control, while attacking anyone who questions it, especially family or friends, demanding their members disconnect from those who dare to question their alien invasion and enslavement doctrine in the hope to achieve fabricated superhuman abilities.


Brought to founder L. Ron Hubbard’s yacht and promised training in Scientology’s most advanced techniques, Mike was instead put to work swabbing the decks. Still, Rinder bought into the doctrine that his personal comfort was secondary to the higher purpose of a world-saving mission, swiftly rising through the ranks. Yet he couldn’t shake a nagging feeling that something was amiss—Hubbard’s promises remained unfulfilled at his death, and his successor, David Miscavige, was a ruthless and vindictive man. When Rinder finally escaped Scientology he became one of the organization’s biggest public enemies overnight. Today he helps people break free of Scientology and tells a harrowing but fulfilling story of personal resilience.
I was taken to a basement area in the federal courthouse to be mugshotted and fingerprinted once again. From there, I went to my arraignment in a cavernous room, which if I recall, had written on the wall in big letters: “In God We Trust.” But the T was missing, so it read, “In God We rust.” Standing there, in a room filled with a lot of frightening-looking defendants – and some pretty scary-looking lawyers as well – I felt as if I was about one-foot tall.
I saw two of the ship’s crew walk over to me, and each one grabbed one of my arms and on Hubbard’s command, I heard him say, “Overboard.” They picked me up and I went sailing over the railing through the air, landing full face into the ocean. The freezing cold water shocked my system, and I started to go under. I wanted to scream, help me, help me, but I was already under water and unable to breathe. The sleeves and pant legs of my uniform were unfolding and getting water soaked. They were getting heavier, and their weight continued to pull me down even lower under the ocean’s surface; I was panicking and thought I was going to drown.


“What the fu—” I said, turning to yell at whoever just grabbed me, thinking it was another EPFer getting overexcited about something. But before I could finish my sentence, I saw it was Mr. Johnson, the Commanding Officer for PAC Base. She gripped my arm and yanked me toward the EPF I/C’s office, pushing me inside and slamming the door shut. Mr. Cromwell, the new EPF MAA, looked up from her desk, startled.
My brother and I attended the most elite Scientology boarding school in the world, the curriculum of which was based on L Ron Hubbard's study methods. Before I could count my age on two hands I was convinced that, without Scientology, planet Earth was doomed for all eternity.
Years before Scientology conspired to swallow my identity and consume the most productive years of my career, I was just an awkward kid from and upper middle-class family coming of age during the drug-soaked ’60s and ’70s in the epicenter of the Southern California counter-culture—in a leafy enclave in the West Hollywood Hills known as Laurel Canyon.


If you believed me when I told you that psychiatrists were the devil's spawn rising from the depths of Hell in a concerted effort to enslave all of humanity, and you hesitated to get needed counseling or therapy from non-Scientology sources, I am genuinely sorry.


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